Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Fitri 1426H

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDIL FITRI
MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN

dari
Wana, Boi dan Muiz

Dam.. dam.. dum.. bunyi mercun...
kanak-kanak datang berduyun-duyun...

Eeeee.... seronoknya nak raya ...

So, this year, alhamdullillah my hubby setuju raya di Penang... itu yg best tu

Like every year, baju raya untuk anak yg lebih... next year, Insya-Allah ada ahli keluarga yang baru. :)

Maaf lama sangat tak update...

Akhirnya...

Akhirnya.. kini pasti... Pride and Prejudice dah paham cerita...

sebab apa? sebab aku jumpa buku adaptation by Archie Oliver. Dalam bahasa ENGLISH yang aku paham. best jugak rupa2nya cerita nie cuma bila baca original version. entah bila aku nak paham. bila baca paham sikit, pastu tinggal, pastu baca balik... tak paham2 jugak hehehhehe.

Kiranya cerita nie cerita cinta la zaman dulu2. Buku tu cuma RM9.90 untuk bacaan bebudak. Dapat kat mak budak, 2 jam dah abis baca hehehehe

sorry la tak jenguk blog aku sebabnya.. ultra busy betul... maaf la kepada sesapa yg jenguk tu. kalau yg tak jenguk tu... takpe la heheheheh.

ye ye ye dah paham cerita...

akak sunflora : saya dah abis baca Sophie Kinsella (Confession of Shopaholic dan Shopaholic Takes Manhattan) La nie saya nak luangkan masa untuk Shopaholic Ties the Knot.

heheheh bulan Nov nie saya ada periksa PTK. kalau la saya boleh membaca buku rujukan macam saya baca buku2 cerita nie kan best. ini idak, pegang jer buku. Baca half page... dah tidur.. abis camne nak lulus hehehehe

kalau buku citer, sanggup tertonggeng2 & tidur lambat... hapa raaaaa.... hehehehhe

Hehehehe

You know what? before this memang aku dah boring/fed-up/malas nak update blog. Kononnya merajuk hati la... Ciss berlakon jer lebih aku nie... Buatnye idak juge... hehehehe aku terasa seolah-olah dipinggirkan. I want to make new friends through blogging buuuuuut with my blogging skill, rerasanya nobody want to read it. Ces... Mengada2kan hehehehe Kes merajuk la... rasanya kena buang NetStat tu, buat aku susah hati jer bila tak de sapa visit.. (perasan macam glamer). I learnt a lot of things thru others blog. Every morning(kat opis je la), my routine will be (usually 8 - 9 am) :

1. Check formal mail (mail opis le)
2. Check informal mail (hotmail, yahoo)
3. Check my faveret blogs (sunflora, auntyN, makandeh, atenah, atiza, ely)
4. Bloghopping from theirs commentators(?spelling)
5. Check my fotopages and others (ambig, farah, norlie, azwa, saifulnang(the best wedding photographer), malaysian fotopages)
6. Baru start kerja hehehhehehehe

So, from now i'll do what i want to do, when to do it and how i'm going to do it...

Nak stop la ...

Aku rasa nak stop blogging nie. Aku nak change kepada private atau mungkin tukar URL.

My Color : BLUE

BLUE You give your love and friendship unconditionaly. You enjoy long, thoughtful conversations rich in philosophy and spirituality. You are very loyal and intuitive. Find out your color at Quiz Me!

Happy Birthday To Me ...

Well, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Me...

Sibuk hal orang

dua, tiga menjak nie... aku sibuk la ... sibuk dgn hal orang... bloghopping merata2... blog sendiri terabai. ampun yer blog.. nanti update balik... byk sgt yg terjadi... emosi aku gila2. very sensitive... sebab tgh berbadan dua kot. asyik sensitip jer aku... this week dah 12 weeks dah kandungan aku.. aku badan besar.. so tak nampak sgt perut naik.. perut bwh tak naik sangat... yg naik perut atas... org panggil babyfat from last pregnancy... hehehehe... bila semangat nak kurus dtg... tup2 mengandung.. takpa la... Muiz pun dah 1 tahun 7 bulan... kesian pun ada kat muiz... tapi bila tengok dia main sorang2, cian plak tak dak gang nak main... insya-allah 26 Jan 2006 aku due. lagi dua minggu kena p kursus BTN, nampak gaya takleh la nak lasak2. Bahaya.

Last June, unit aku kena turun padang (outstation) seluruh Malaysia melawat projek, aku tak leh pi. aku kena jaga Projek MID Penang and Johor. so terpaksa minta kak H tolong cover. sebab masa 1st pregnancy, aku gugur sebab naik kapal terbang. kalau nak citer experience tu, pjg gak...nanti la aku citer. Muiz is my second pregnancy. insya-allah, kandungan aku kali selamat. Tapi aku pantang nampak chocolate Ferrero Rocher. Setakat nie dah 10 bijik aku makan. Ish tak leh... azam aku lepas pantang nak diet giler... biar kurus cam a few years back masa belajar kat UTM. If ppl kenal aku masa kat UTM & tengok aku sekarang, mampus diaorg terkejut. mana taknya bertukar size...

Kalau aku post gambo aku masa kurus and now... mesti lawak punya. Alasannya... aku accident masa 1st semester, final year. tgh bz dgn projek. Untuk makluman aku berjalan kaki dan dilanggar oleh sebuah motosikal. Teruk tak? Masa tu aku rasa teruk, tp bila pikir balik, alhamdullilah tak seteruk org lain. Aku patah kaki kiri, area ankle (pasai apa aku rasa macam dah pernah cerita?) Masa tempoh sembuh tu, pengalaman aku yg tak leh aku lupa. So, dr nasihat jgn aktif sgt guna kaki kiri bagi tempoh 2 tahun. soooo dalam tempoh 2 tahun tu la aku bertambah berat badan (ketui2 lemak - macam kak tenah citer dalam blog dia)...

Sooo, insya-allah lepas pantang, aku berazam turunkan berat badan. Tak fit rasanya. Masa anak dara (lepas accident & dah gemuk), aku boleh control lagi weight aku. Tapi lepas kahwin dan beranak pinak nie, teruk aku rasa badan aku. Ish... kalau la ada member yg bersemangat macam aku nak turun berat nie kat Putrajaya, boleh la buat member sparring ker apa ker...

Aku minat martial art. aku minat Taekwon-do. aku kurus dan cun dulu sebab aku aktif bertaekwon-do. Emmm... mesti kuat semangat. Kena ikut nasihat Kak Andeh.. "Set objective, then the planning and execution will follow"

Macam kak ely cakap, "Happiness is in your hand"...

So, here come my new me.... :-).

Insya-Allah... Amin.

I'm doing this for my own happiness....

Balance of Life ...

A good advice…
'What I do today is important, because I will never have today again… "

Mary and Susan were friends for years. They grew up together and attended the same schools. They were now both in their 40's, and both had great careers. They both had a similar upbringing - same education, same family values, similar support and financial position. But there was one main difference. Mary never seemed to have enough time. She watched her life long friend Susan. She had similar responsibilities and interests. Susan had a career, she had three children, and she had her hobbies, one of which included golf. Over lunch, Susan was telling Mary about the golf game that she played last weekend.

"Susan, where do you find the time to play golf?" asked Mary. "I never seem to have the time, now with the children older and doing their own thing I thought I would have time to play golf like we did when we were in College."

Susan looked at Mary and laughed, "Mary, we both have the same hours in a day. You do have the time to play golf!" With a sigh Mary replied, "That's easy for you to say. I never seem to have time. My work takes so much of my time. I am in the office at 7:30, I leave at
6:30 in the evening. By the time I get home and have dinner, it is 8:00! And, then I usually have a briefcase full of work. The weekends are full of more work. Just to keep up, I have to put in the hours. You know what it is like!"

"Of course, I know what it is like," Susan said. "But what would happen tomorrow if you got sick? Who would do the work?"

"Sick. Who has time to get sick!" exclaimed Mary. "But if I did get sick, someone else would do the work, I suppose."

"You know something, Mary, I used to be like you. I worked night and day and of course on weekends. When I got home I was exhausted but I would push myself and read my children a bedtime story. By the time I went to bed, I would be more than exhausted. The boss I had was very demanding. She was there early in the morning, late at night, and she always worked weekends. I felt I had to do the same I needed the job to help support my family - Just as you did."

"But then I had a change of bosses. The man I worked for was older and much wiser, I might add! Of course, I continued to work the hours I had been working. One day he came to my desk and passed me a card that had a quote on it which said, 'What I do today is important, because I will never have today again' - then he left."

"I sat there stunned. I suddenly thought of what was important to me. While my work was important, I realized my children were more important. I also realized that time for me was important. It was 4:30, the official closing time of the office. I straightened my desk, felt a twinge of guilt about leaving but I forced myself to leave. I was home by 5:00. My children and husband were surprised. I had a wonderful evening. It was not a chore to read that bedtime story that evening."

Mary was looking at her friend thoughtfully and then questioned Susan about the work she had left on her desk. Susan replied, "I never thought this possible, but I actually accomplished more the next day then I had in weeks. As I was leaving the next day I stopped at my new boss's office and thanked him for the quote. He told me a story about advice his dad had given him many years ago when he was working night and day. He referred to it as 'Balance of Life'."

" His dad told him to keep balance in his work, in his family life and in time for himself. He explained to me, while all aspects of our life are important, without a balance, you become addicted and like all addictions you lose.
- No balance with your family - you lose them.
- No balance with your work - you lose your perspective and you actually lose focus on the important aspects of your job.
- No balance with yourself - you forget who you are and when you retire you have nothing!

He went on to tell me that who we are, is NOT what we do to make a living. Who we are is a balance of our family, our work, ourselves! It truly was the best advice I ever received."

Mary took a drink of her tea and tearfully looked at her friend, "But I would never get my work done if I left at 4:30!" Susan looked thoughtfully at her, "When you go to work on Monday, look at what you have on your desk. Make a list of everything you have to get done and beside that list write the impact of not doing it. Then focus only on the top three items that have the most impact. Do that everyday for a week. At first, you will find it difficult to leave. But, after awhile, you will find that you will have more energy, and you will be more focused in your work because you have BALANCE! There are times when we have to lose balance - a special project at work, or a family matter at home - but consciously focusing on balance keeps everything in check." Mary smiled at her friend,

"Thanks for talking with me. We have been friends for so long. Thank heavens I have balance with your friendship! You have convinced me. I will leave the work in my briefcase this weekend. On Monday, I will make the list first thing. Perhaps next weekend, I will have the time to go golfing with you!" Balance of Life" - important for us ALL!

Wandering...

Right now i don't have any observervation to be reported. i know that nobody is reading & understanding my points. more of 2 cents ideas. do i need to write in English which are very rusty rather than my Bahasa that allow me to explore my creativity? Entahlah...

sometimes i think i need attention in everything i do to encourage me in doing anything that i've done. Di mana ada kemahuan di situ ada jalan kan? but i'm sort of a person that needs some motivation in everything i do.

Sometimes i feel lost in my own world. Meraba-raba, terkapai-kapai... aku teringin menyampaikan mesej kepada semua dalam penulisan aku. Bila aku menulis, aku syok sendiri. Do i need to be formal? Kena ada pendahuluan, kena ada penutup, kena ada isi-isi yg perlu dielaborate? aku kena berbahasa baku ke? atau selamba? ke aku perlu ikut gaya penulisan aku sendiri? be myself?

baru nie member aku baru bertukar tpt kerja. Dalam ucapan, bos dia highlights the essence of her... kalau aku bertukar nnt. Do people understand me? or they just highlights my formal personality not the true me... do i need to over expose myself so that people understand me better even though i felt like letting people hurts me more...

what do i really wants in my life? Sometimes i felt like people take advantage of me.. me being helping around ... people says that i don't have any work. Do i need to pretend that i'm busy?

Honesty is the main point in my life. I won't befriended anyone who cheat on me. If u have something to say... Say it to me... not people around me...

Right now, at the age of becoming 28 in 11 days ... i still don't know what is my Best Quality... i'va already asked my hubby... He said that my love for him... is the best quality in me... Do i believe in what he said? Yes, but i don't think that is my Best. how do i find out what is my best Quality... huh...

I don't want my whole life to be like this... still wandering about my life. Do i need to be serious at the age of 30? no more fun... i felt like i'm living in a glass box. nice to see, nice to hold, but empty inside. What do i need to do to make my life more colours? huh...

Senyum

Senyum jer M nie.... eeee geram... mak cubit pipi tu kang hehehehehhehehe

You Are My Sunshine....

Kebosanan

Bosan... boring... bosannya... dah byk hari tak dapat encouragement .... apa nak jadi dgn aku nie...

Anak ...

Aku sejak dengar cerita nie memang sentiasa berharap dan berdoa yg anak akak nie dijumpai semula.

Bukannya apa... teringat kisah sorang budak cina nie yang kena culik & tak jumpa sampai sudah. Mak bapak dia punya la cari, ada org kata pernah jumpa kat siam tapi budak tu dah kena potong tangan & jadi peminta sedekah... Zalim... Kejam... Dengar kata budak nie dah jadi bodo akibat ditortured oleh sindikit culik budak nie.... tak dak kata2 yg boleh gambarkan perasaan aku.

Dulu kecoh kes org culik budak dalam buaian... Ngeri aku nak pikir... insan yang tak tau apa2. insan yang perlu perlindungan kita... ishhh tak tergambar dgn kata-kata.

Itu kes culik budak... la nie member aku bagitau yg ada kena culik untuk jual organ... ish apa nak jadi dgn dunia sekarang nie...

La nie bila aku ada anak sendiri... aku boleh paham perasan akak tu. Terasa lagi masa mengandung, bersalin (citer aku dulu). tiba-tiba anak kena culik... ishh...

hubby aku pernah citer yg dulu masa dia pegi pasar bawak M (aku kat rumah, buat kerja rumah), ramai org kat pasar tu bergilir nak dukung dia (nie bukan kes perasan anak dia comei nooo), hubby aku citer masa depa dukung tu mata dia liar dok perati, bukan apa takut jadi apa2. ye la zaman la nie payah nak percaya kat org... org menipu nie ramai...

bila kes akak nie hilang anak dia... aku berdoa biarlah budak nie selamat dan dijumpai semula... Alhamdullillah, semalam polis dah jumpa baby tu dalam keadaan selamat dan sihat. aku tengok paper star, memang ada iras muka mak dia kat hidung & kening...

aku rasa org yg culik tu mungkin ada reason and problem sendiri.

Tapi bagi aku masyarakat pun menyumbang jugak dalam bab-bab bagi stress nie.

Masa aku baru kahwin dulu, aku terpaksa berpisah sementara dgn hubby. aku kerja kat penang, hubby kat KL (lebih kurang 6 bulan pisah). Pastu aku dapat tukar KL. So, dalam tempoh tu, hubby kena berulang-alik KL-Penang. bila aku ada meeting KL, aku p sana. so bila aku balik penang, mak cik-mak cik penang (Mami penang) nie asyik tanya aku bila nak mengandung dan beranak? Boring aku....

Lama-lama benda nie jadi stress bg aku & hubby. Bukannya kami tak mau tapi takdak rezeki lagi... yg aku heran tu, family tak gaduh sangat tapi org kampung yg lebih... sebab tu la aku rasa masyarakat (kampung???) yang suka bagi stress kat orang. kang bila takdak anak, kata si pompuan tu mandul la... apa la... betui tak? bagi yg bernasib baik, ok la... bagi yg ada masalah, rasa nak avoid org kan bila asyik kena soalan cepumas tu...

Entahlah bagi aku yg masih setahun jagung nie... ini hasil permerhatian aku...

Naluri seorang ibu memang lain....

One simple gesture ...

Betul tak kadang-kadang kita angkat tangan, senyum pada seseorg tu boleh menaikkan semangat org tu bekerja.

macam nie citernyer...

every day sebelum masuk parking akan ada sorang pak guard yg bertugas di kepala simpang utk perhatikan kenderaan masuk parking samada pelawat atau staf. selama nie aku jarang angkat tangan kat dia sebab dulu aku pernah angkat tangan tapi dia buat tak nampak. so konon2 merajuk dgn dia, aku tak pernah angkat tangan lagi. ntah macam mana, hari nie aku angkat tangan kat dia. senyum lebar dia tgk aku angkat tangan ... hehehehe aku plak senyum giler.. wah aku rasa hari nie mesti kerja dia berkualiti. cuba bayangkan if everyone yang masuk parking angkat tgn kat dia, dia dah gembira... ishhh simple jer just angkat tangan dah boleh buat org happy.

serupa la jugak dgn senyuman kan....

ishh... 'One simple gesture can make people HAPPY'.

Haaa hari nie dah angkat tangan kat sapa2 ker??? hihihihihi

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Mulut Jelabaih tu ...

hihihi... semalam aku ada buat discussion dgn bos pasal next week punya meeting. ada paper kena bentang... proposal dah dapat lama dah. masa tu aku tanya bos nak buat paper ka nak bentang dalam meeting (minggu depan nie)? she said tak payah, minta Division lain buat.. so aku relax la... bila aku update bos balik semalam pasai benda nie.. dia kata aku kena buat paper/slide.. sejelabas mulut aku nie jawab,"dulu saya nak buat, pn kata tak payah. la nie kena buat mana nak dan ..." lepas aku cakap baru aku terpikiaq... woish jelabas aku nie. takda tapis2 punya... tp aku rasa takpa sebab patut aku cakap mcm tapi not very nice la. nasib baik masa tu tak dak sapa2 hehehe kalau tak mau malu dia hehehehehe

tp macam mana aku boleh dapat skill nie ha? mungkin pasai aku selalu kena kejelabasan org lain so aku terpaksa build up tembok jelabas nie hehehehe (korang paham ka tak? tak tau)

pasai apa hari ni aku cakap ada bunyi penang (belah utara)? pasai semalam aku jumpa member sekapai. bila dah jumpa keluaq la abis. nie bila nak stop pun aku tak tau... hehehehhehhe bukan apa... puah aku cakap utara... nie mau auntyN, atenah & sapa2 belah utara baca baru syok kih kih kih

usha rapat depa kat lepaih nie kwang kwang kwang....

Syoknyer ...

hehehe hari nie seronok la. Kerja dah selesai... tup2 dapat pelawaan dari seorg aunty Y yg baru pindah Putrajaya untuk makan jemput2 @ cucuq udang... eee seronotnya...

seronok sebab ada jugak blogger yang duduk dekat Putrajaya. sebab blogger yg lain tak tau duduk kat mana. auntyN kat penang (nak balik penang bulan 8 nie nak cari la auntyN - kalau sudi heheheheh), MA kat KL, atenah kat US, atiza kat KL, agak2 Pnut kat kajang kan? SF kat Arab Saudi kot? d'arkampo kat ganu?

bukan apa sekurang2nya adala jugak someone yg ada persamaan (dr segi blogging nie). cuma aku nie mungkin perlukan latihan untuk mempertajamkan skill blogging nie (ada ka?) hehehehe

anyway, aunty Y... kalau tak dapat makan cucuq udang nnt saya try buat la (tgh salin resepi nie)
cuma sapa ada resepi Makaroni Bakaq? dah lama cari nie....

p/s : aku yg kenal diaorang tp diaorg tak kenal aku pun, perasan jer lebih kot hehehehehhe

1 tahun 6 bulan yang lalu ...

Last day di wad...

(18SX... Read at your own risk)

Setahun enam bulan lalu... aku dipaksa melahirkan my son, M 3 minggu awal atas pelbagai sebab. Pre E la, kencing kotor, BP tinggi, berat naik mendadak(lepas raya - sakan makan sebab masa bulan puasa berat turun 2 kg), kencing kotor... so aku diinduce... aku masa tu terkejut sebab just datang weekly checkup biasa, baru pagi tu aku masak Bihun Singapore untuk jamuan raya di opis. Tiba-tiba kena warded and kena induce... Persiapan dari segi emosi memang aku kurang.

Percaya tak selepas bersalin aku jeles with my own son... Aku fikir my hubby will love our son more than me... i felt macam kain buruk... lepas pakai dibuang begitu saja. Sebab 2 jam lepas bersalin secara normal, waktu nak dihantar ke wad, aku turun katil... whooosh .... tumpah darah sebanyak2 nya. Nak pitam aku tengok darah aku sendiri... afterward, midwife terpaksa 'bersih'kan rahim dari uri yg tertinggal. Sakitnya... tak terbayang...

Selesai berehat sekejap aku ditolak balik ke wad, masa tu takde sapa2. My hubby takdak... perasaan masa tu, dah la baru lepas sakit nak bersalin, bergenang air mata bila lihat takde sapa tunggu aku (tgh menaip nie pun bergenang air mata *sroot*) Fikiran jahat muncul, dah beranak... aku nie dilupakan... nobody nak support aku nak comfort aku... Cousin aku datang dgn anak2 dia, terpaksa la senyum and layan dalam tak larat and feel neglected.

After 30 minutes, my hubby dtg dengan muka risau asking my condition, ok ker ... aku merajuk sekejap. dia sabar melayan kerenah merajuk aku, dia minta maaf sebab lambat tapi dia citer yg dia dan my parents tertanya2 why aku tak naik lagi lepas 3, 4 jam bersalin... tanya nurse, kata aku ada masalah sikit... rupa2nya baru berkejar dari dewan bersalin lepas tengok anak aku M di NICU. Lega
hati sikit ... oooo dia ambik berat rupanya...

NICU sebab anakku bengkak kepala sebab terpaksa divacuum waktu bersalin. aku terlalu sakit dan meneran.. aku tak tahu nak meneran. Aku sempat cium anak aku lepas bersalin sebelum dihantar ke NICU untuk observation... Anak aku M masuk wad NICU selama 11 hari... the most longest time in my life melihat anakku di wad... People might say, "alaa sikit macam tu nak citer, nak mengeluh, nak
mengada2' But for me, it's a life time experience. Takde kali kedua, it is not a routine work or anything...

Malam tu, my hubby tolak aku ke NICU. Aku cuci tangan, pakai uniform and berdebar2 nak tengok anak aku yg aku kandung 9 bulan, anak yang aku tunggu2, anak yang aku lahirkan selepas bersabung nyawa .... For the first time aku lihat anakku dalam babycot(?) dgn kepala berbalut tinggi. setinggi 3-4 inci bengkak kepala akibat vacuum. Menitis air mata aku... aku sentuh jari anakku, aku pegang jarinya... Hiba hati aku sehingga hari ini, mahu aku menangis bila teringat kembali kenangan ini... aku usap pipi dia, aku sentuh hidungnya... aku nak peluk tapi aku takut... Hiba hati aku anakku kena menanggung kesakitan. aku berdoa biarlah aku yg ganti segala kesakitannya ... biarlah aku yg tanggung...

Hari kedua, aku discharge but anakku kena tinggal di wad.. aku pergi menjenguk dia... aku bersetuju untuk jaga dia di wad. aku dapat bilik di NICU... waktu nurse tolak anak aku masuk bilik, terlintas
di fikiran "anak sapa nie? macam cina, salah kot?" Rupa-rupanya bengkak dah turun ke bahagian muka... Memang macam anak cina dengan muka bengkak, bulat, mata sepet. Nurse terpaksa tolak balik keluar takut aku terleka mengesan amaran monitor denyutan jantung anakku kalau denyutan jantung menurun... Aku terpaksa balik rumah sebab tak tahan sakit sebab baru lepas bersalin...

Every day aku berulang-alik dari rumah ke hospital untuk melihat anakku... My hubby berulang-alik 3 kali sehari untuk hantar susu badan... Itu saja mampu aku lakukan selain banyak2 berdoa. Anak aku
kena demam kuning, dr inform ini akibat bengkak di kepala surut... M diletakkan di bawah lampu biru sepanjang masa. Ada sekali tu, aku cuba belajar breastfeed anak aku. Nurse angkat and aku cuba
pegang... Kekok... Tapi paling menghibakan, anak aku menangis bila aku peluk dan pangku... menangis kesakitan sebab terkena bengkak di kepala... aku menangis... aku rasa failure sangat sebab tak mampu nak menyusukan anak aku sendiri... Nurse menasihatkan aku banyak bersabar, jgn stress, jgn putus asa... So, anak aku minum susu pakai syringe sehingga keluar wad...

After a few days, aku dah kuat sikit and aku request bilik untuk jaga anak aku sendiri. M minum susu aku guna syringe..

Selepas 11 hari dalam wad, di bilik nombor 11 dan dilahirkan pada 11 Disember 2003 ... Alhamdullillah anak aku kembali sihat tanpa sebarang komplikasi cuma perlu follow-up dgn klinik paed.

Alhamdullillah, my son M, now sihat, gembira. aku bahagia ... aku bahagia dgn suami aku dan anak aku... Ini semua dugaanNya buat aku dan suami... and a lesson to me... JANGAN SESUKA HATI JER NAK MERAJUK DAN JELES tak tentu pasal hehehehe

Trying to be a good MOTHER to my children ...

Enjoynya ...

Gooll ... Pandai anak mak shot ikut bawah jaring... mana ada ramai org pandai main macam M kan? ;-)

Fuh lega ...

Sejak last week aku berdiam diri disebabkan ketaq (??) bila dapat arahan utk bg ceramah kursus hari nie. aku tak pernah mengajar tambahan pulak di hadapan orang2 yang lebih terer bab format penulisan nie.

fuh lega... setelah tak dapat tidur nyenyak 2, 3 hari nie. akhirnya berjaya jugak... feedback yg aku dapat so far, kursus nie bagus bila nak buat penyelarasan dgn semua bahagian. emmm paham jugak diaorg dgn apa yg aku cakap ye heheheheh

anyway, fuh lega untuk kali ketiganya...

p/s : kang semput plak aku nie ...

Betul jugak ...

Actually apa yg diinginkan oleh setiap insan dalam kehidupan masing2? kereta besar? rumah besar? Duit banyak? Boleh melancong ke sana sini? Adakah kaya material (uwang) atau kaya kasih sayang?

Kalau aku kata aku nak duit saja... tak boleh .. aku mesti mau org sayang aku...
Kalau aku kata aku nak kasih sayang saja tanpa duit ... tak boleh jugak ... abis nak makan apa, pakai apa?

Tu la namanya kena bersederhana dalam semua hal. Aku tau ramai yg dah paham konsep nie, cuma aku nak remind diri sendiri. Kerja saja tanpa henti (macam Big Big Boss yg suka buat meeting pkl 5 - 7 mlm, tapi dulu la setelah disound oleh anak buah dia yg ramai nie, gengstar nie hehehehe) lagi tak best life nie. Nak jugak merasa hasil susah payah kerja. Nak jugak tengok dunia lain dari cubicle, lift and building nie.

Main-main je tak buat kerja pun tak leh jugak. Appraisal hujung tahun plak dapat la cukup2 makan. Yg bestnyer, [true story] ada orang kerja bagai nak rak tp appraisal cukup makan je. sebab apa? sebab tak pandai 'kipas' atau Li[gat] [Ki]pas. Adil ka...? bagi aku tak adil? abis apa perlu buat??

"Buat bodo je la "[member aku jawab - hampeh sungguh]

Bagi aku,
- kita kena sayang org supaya org sayang kita balik ...
- kita jgn buat jahat kat org kalau kita tak mau org jahat kat kita
- kita take care org baru org take care kat kita
- kita kerja bijak (? - Work smart la sebenaqnya) macam kita nak hidup lama tp beramal ibadat banyak macam kita nak mati sat lagi
- kita kena jaga kesihatan (sat lagi nak exercise naik tangga/turun tangga atau Jom Kayuh mcm dalam kempen MOH tu)

Kehidupan nie sebenarnya adil atas perancangan-Nya. Cuma bila kena batang hidung sendiri yg terasa sangat tapi cuba kena pada org lain, apa kata kita, "Kesiankan kat si anu tu, kena bayar bil telefon RM1,700" heehhehe

aku yg kena RM50 nie pun terkedu sekejap, mana tak nye dulu free sekarang kena bayar... dulu... dulu kiran... Tp pada org kena bayar tu, kena pikir la, dah memang guna telefon for personal use. kena la bayar... sekarang member opis pakat lock phone termasuk la aku...

oppss dah #80 [lock] belum phone aku nie??!!! hehehhehe

Sibuk .. sibuk ..

Sejak balik dari bercuti nie, jadi malas plak. asyik blog hopping jer, kononnya nak catch-up dgn blog faberet (malas actually). Sibuk nak add counter plak.. bila add, tak ngam plak dgn layout blog. emmm nak kena tukar layout ker nak kena tukar counter hahahahha

Semalam dapat memo kena bayar bil telefon untuk personal call. Tapis punya tapis kena la bayar lebih kurang RM50. aku asyik call penang jer berminit-minit (tapi anak kena la call mak selalu bertanya khabar kan?!! hehehe). bayar je la sebab memang pakai untuk personal punya. tapi aku dapat tau yg ada kerani (MALE) kena bayar bil RM200 - RM900 !!!! Peh nie gayut ker tahap kena tukar status telefonis berkarat? they must have their own reasons right? [Latest news, ada kerani kena bayar RM1,700 !!!!]

Today i begin my work with a calm emotion sebab aku dah dapat rasionalized balik dgn org semalam (entry sebelum). That person terkejut because dapat overwhelming punya feedback bila dia buat come back through emails and YMs. For her, she is an ordinary person. but for me (and rest of us), she is an EXTRA ORDINARY person coz she can write and interprete very well. For me, i can be a good observer but lack of skills in writing/expressing in notes (wei ada special class[es] for this kind of skill?? :P . camne org boleh blog panjang lebar ttg anything - must be dia tu berbakat. Aku nie berbakul ye kut hehehehehe)

Ada banyak dalam fikiran aku tapi tak reti la nak meluahkan. Takpe aku belajar perlahan2. A LONG JOURNEY BEGIN WITH A SINGLE STEP kan?

p/s : dah tak sanggup nak habiskan Pride and Prejudice - very high in English Literature. Now, i'm into Sophie Kinsella (Confession of Shopaholic - dah abis), here comes Shopaholic Takes Manhattan !! Then Shopaholic Ties the Knot - wait for me.

p/p/s : can someone suggest a good reading book ??

After a long break ...

Alhamdullillah, kami sekeluarga selamat sampai ke rumah semalam after 1 week break from work, tense and others. my son, alhamdullillah dah improve tapi kena hati2 gak, takut terjatuh lagi.

anyway, back to work. plan nak outstation esok terpaksa tunda ke next week. nothing much.

Selagi nama manusia, memang takkan puas. aku kenal sorang nie melalui online. dia tak kenal aku pun. dia ada problem, niat nak membantu/bagi sokongan. but dia tolak dgn alasan nak privacy. tak pa, aku hormat dan terima keputusan dia. Tup2 dia marah/sound aku online siap panggil mangkuk hayun, moron etc. mula aku naik angin, kalau tak sudi takpa. tolak cara hormat jgn sesuka hati marah org. is not nice. anyway, aku give a small/tiny piece of my mind - tak tahu dia tau atau tidak. anyway, kat sini la aku bercerita.

mungkin salah aku jugak. tapi cuma rasa tak puas hati bila diwar-war secara online (sama kes dgn org tu). entahlah, rambut sama hitam, hati lain-lain. Bagi aku berkawan biar beribu, musuh jgn dicari.

biarlah, aku sekadar meluahkan rasa hati, tapi aku tak pandai pun bab meluah perasaan nie hehehehhe. Tak seperti sesetengah orang memang berbakat dalam bab ini. aku appreciate org macam nie, mampu meluahkan serta mengarang bait-bait perkataan. Berbakat.

anyway, aku masih macam nie la... LIFE MUST GO ON

Kek Hari Lahir Abah ...

Kek Hari Lahir Abah

Newest Picture (2 days) After Patah ....

2 hari lepas patah di bahu... kesian anak mak nie... Muahh sayang M....

Happy Birthday Abah ...

Hari nie hari lahir abah yang ke 56 tahun. I Love you so much...Abah
pencen or last day of work hari Rabu lepas, yes, hari my son jatuh
and fractured his collar bone... so, abah tanpa perlu pikir
panjang.. ambik tiket dtg sini with my mom bila dapat tahu my son
patah...

now they are here and tengah babysit my son... thanks abah di atas
pengorbanan abah.

My dad,

as i assume (perasan kot), love me so much. Kami dulu hidup susah
tapi yang bagusnya abah nie... kalau bab persekolahan,belajar dan
buku memang tak pernah yg tak dpt. he will make sure we have it.
alhamdullillah, aku berjaya ke menamatkan pelajaran di menara gading. Now, its my
time to balas budi and take a good cares of my PARENTS.

masa tadika dulu, abah citer pernah kawan2 aku tak nak pegang tangan
masa melintas jalan sebab muka aku penuh bisul. abah mengalirkan air
mata seorang ayah sebab memikirkan tiada siapa yg nak berkawan dgn
anak dia.

i love my abah so much....

so, to abah...

"SELAMAT HARI LAHIR ABAH"

Patah ...

Hari Rabu lepas (11/5/2005), during lunch, aku dapat 4 missed calls... check2 my babysitter. tepon balik, aku dengar suara kak S gabra, my son jatuh sofa and menangis bila angkat tangan kiri. grab my keys... aku blah balik.

sampai rumah kak S, my son teresak2 menangis. aku check badan dia for any bengkak or anything, so far tak nampak. call my hubby suruh datang, nak bawak ke klinik. Kak S bagitau yg dia main lompat2 atas sofa, jatuh atas sofa and jatuh plak ke lantai, jatuh atas tangan kiri dia. masa tu kak S tengah mandikan si baby girl. Kak S babysit 3 org, my son, 4 years old boy and 6 months baby girl.

sementara menunggu my hubby, aku peluk anak aku, masih lagi teresak2, bila angkat tgn, nangis. Perasaan seorang mak masa tu memang hiba sangat, biar aku yg ganti, jgn dia sakit, biar aku yg sakit. And guest what, that day, genap my son berumur 1 year and 5 months. Ya allah masih kecik lagi.

afterwards kami ke klinik, xray. doktor confirmed patah kat tulang bahu (i guess collar bone or tulang belikat?). dr. informed tak perlu plaster (POP) sebab area bahu. budak2 cepat sembuh 3 ke 4 minggu, cuma jgn gerakkan sgt tangan tu. medicine cuma painkiller and ubat hilang bengkak.

Ya allah, kau sembuhkanlah anakku, kau kurangkan kesakitannya, kau kembalikanlah kegembiraannnya.

so, on thursday aku cuti. Atok and Opah datang malam tu jugak. Tok and Tokwan datang hari khamis. I have to ask my mom to babysit him for a while. takut dia jatuh plak....

Kesian manja mak sorang. Memang perasan anak aku kurang menggunakan tangan kirinya, tapi aku minta dia pegang barang/toys guna tgn kiri. exercise sikit. hilang seri rumah aku sekejap dgn suara and keletah dia. My son, my sunshine. Muaaaaah mak love u so much...

Selamat Hari Ibu Khas buat Mak ...

Mak dan cucu sulung dia ...

Mawar Putih Untuk Mak ...

Kau sinaran bulan
Menyerikan bintang-bintang
Kaulah fajar yang menerbitkan pagi

Kau sirami embun
Menyegarkan pepohonan
Kau bukakan tabir siang untukku

Kau berikan mama
Kasih sayang maha suci
Betapa agungnya
Tiada ternilaikan

Oh mama, oh mamaku
Tiada cinta yang murni
Setulus cintamu

Ku suntingkan mama
Sekuntum mawar putih
Sebagai lambang kesucian cintaku

Somewhere over the RAINBOW ...

"Somewhere Over the Rainbow"

Somewhere over the rainbow

Way up high,

There's a land that I heard of

Once in a lullaby.

Somewhere over the rainbow

Skies are blue,

And the dreams that you dare to dream

Really do come true.

Someday I'll wish upon a star

And wake up where the clouds are far

Behind me.

Where troubles melt like lemon drops

Away above the chimney tops

That's where you'll find me.

Somewhere over the rainbow

Bluebirds fly.

Birds fly over the rainbow.

Why then, oh why can't I?
If happy little bluebirds fly

Beyond the rainbow

Why, oh why can't I?

:: music by Harold Arlen and lyrics by E.Y. Harburg ::

Fun is just around the corner ...

" A long journey begin with a single step ... "

Minyak naik lagi ...

Semalam kabinet umumkan bahawa petrol naik 10 sen dan diesel 20 sen. Lepas nie barang2 sure naik lagi. Last week aku terkejut susu anak aku naik RM5. terkezut aku, nampaknya kena tukar susu yg sederhana RM but berkualiti sikit untuk manja aku sorang tu. bukannya kedekut tapi nak berjimat sikit.

Aku teringat zaman aku budak-budak dulu ...
pegi sekolah bawak 30 sen. balik simpan dalam tabung 30 sen (sebab dah bwk bekal air teh, nasi lemak & karipap sebijik - hehehehe mana tak tembun). ye la kalau aku habiskan duit tu, maknanya aku dah over budget.

aku teringat dulu ...
every day aku ambik upah pegi kedai beli barang, dapat la upah RM1. Cukup sebulan masuk BSN.

Aku teringat ...
hantar kuih seri muka yg mak aku buat ke kedai kopi (sebelah rumah je) buat menampung belanja harian.

Aku teringat ...
mak menjahit kain every waktu terluang, aku cuma menolong jahit mata lalat/karipap di leher baju.

Aku teringat ...
mak mengasuh budak2 termasuk aku menolong mengasuh budak. Mak aku pernah mengasuh budak yang pekak, si A (tahupun bila umur dia 1 tahun lebih), aku lazimnya menolong tidurkan dan jaga buai. Aku tak pernah tahu yang si A nie pekak, sambil aku hayun buai sambil aku menyanyi lagu2 dulu (air pasang dalam la, anak rusa nani la, rumah terbakar la) sekuat2 hati aku. konon2nya nak tidurkan dia, rupa2nya dia tak dengar sepatah haram pun aku menyanyi. Kensel nak masuk Malaysian Idol kah kah kah. Abah lagi best, siap marah2 mamak jual roti sebab bunyikan loceng masa si A nak tidur. LoL. Tapi budak tu kan comel and bila dah besar, hensem wei. Its an experience bagi aku yg baru bersekolah rendah (Darjah 3 rasanya). Baru2 nie je mak dah tak mengasuh budak, dah tak larat katanya walaupun dia sayangkan budak2. sampai sekarang budak2 yang mak mengasuh panggil MAK dan jadi anak angkat mak so jadi adik angkat aku campur adik2 sedia ada.

Aku teringat ...
mak buat segala macam kerja untuk menolong abah dan menampung keperluan kami. Alhamdullillah berkat kerja keras mak dan abah, kami dapat hidup senang walaupun tak mewah. makan, pakai cukup dan mampu menghantar aku melanjutkan pelajaran.

Adik2 aku pun mampu membantu dan membalas balik jasa mereka.

Aku teringat ...
mak pernah bercerita yang sedara-mara kami yang hidup senang dulu pernah menghina kami. Abah pernah minta bantuan kewangan dari abgnya untuk baiki bumbung rumah yang bocor tapi ditolak dgn alasan takde duit (malam tu, rumah diaorg kena rompak dan abis duit meniaga di kantin). oppss lupa, keluarga aku sampai sekarang tak ada rumah sendiri, cuma rumah pusaka yang sentiasa di remind oleh kakak2 ipar mak. Kereta ... baru dibeli lepas aku accident (1999), susah nak berulang-alik untuk berubat di BP. Aku tahu, walaupun aku rasa ini dah susah tapi ada orang yang lebih susah. Cuma, sekadar menulis di sini.

Betul mak : BUKAN SENANG NAK JADI SENANG

Alhamdullillah ...

alhamdullillah, aku bersyukur dgn apa yg aku ada dan perolehi.

Tadi aku terjumpa sebuah blog mengenai masalah perkahwinan dgn warganegara asing. Bila timbul masalah begini maka timbullah jugak masalah aqidah anak2. Si bapa nak anak2 dibesarkan dgn agama asalnya. Si ibu mestilah mempertahankan aqidah Islam yang satu. si ibu rasa bersalah meninggal si bapa lantaran telah hidup selama 16 tahun sebagai suami isteri. bagi aku, yang terhimpit ialah anak2. Hanya doa yang dapat aku berikan kepada si ibu. Last entry awal April lepas, agaknya apalah berlaku sekarang ini. adakah si ibu dapat melarikan anak2 agar mereka terlepas dari niat jahat si bapa? Berdebar2 aku menantikan kisah selanjutnya (hopefully si ibu dapat update blognya nanti).

Alhamdullillah, aku bersyukur di atas segala kurniaanMu ya Allah.

Terdiam sejenak bila aku membaca derita orang lain. betapa mereka tabah menghadapi dugaanMu. Aku masih lagi mampu hidup bahagia bersama keluarga kecilku. Aku bahagia dengan suamiku, anakku, mak dan abah, mama dan papa yang menyayangi aku seperti anak mereka sendiri, adik2 ku, ipar duai ku dan kaum kerabatku. Aku kagum dengan ketabahan dan kecekalan mereka.

Aku timbang2 balik, masalah aku yang aku rasa masalah berat sebenarnya hanyalah masalah kecil/remeh berbanding masalah org lain.

Alhamdullillah,

aku masih ada suami, anak, kaum keluarga, rumah untuk berlindung dan berteduh, makan dan pakai terjaga, negara yang aman damai dan yang paling penting bebas melaksanakan amal ibadah.

I'll appreciate them.

Sayang, I LUV U. thanks for everything.

Friendship ...

Best Friends: How to Grow a Friend
The best time to grow a best friend is before you need one!

1. People Equal Friends.
There is a certain chemistry with friends just as in a love relationship. Therefore, contact with other people is the first building block to grow a friend. Friends can't grow in a vacuum. Best friends take time.

2. Talking Is Essential Among Friends.
Talking between friends requires reciprocity. In a mutually satisfying friendship, both friends talk and both friends listen. Friends talk appropriately to each other.

3. Friends Acknowledge Friends.
Friends acknowledge each other when talking. Many conflicts in your personal relationships can be avoided if you will take the time to acknowledge other's feelings and points of view.

4. Friends Listen to Friends.
Listening to friends is an important step in building a closer friendship. We often take listening for granted, never realizing what it means to really listen to a friend.

5. Friends Attend to Friends.
Friends focus during conversations. Friends pay attention in conversations. It means that your ears, your eyes, your body and your feelings are all focused on that person at the time.

6. Friends Show Empathy With Friends.
Empathy is identifying with your friend's feelings and seeing life through your friend's eyes. Confidences are freely given when they are received with empathy among friends.

7. Friends Touch Friends.
Touching is a warm form of communication between friends. When you see best friends communicating, you will notice friends "listen with their eyes," stand close together, and touch comfortably.

8. Friends Praise Friends.
Affirmation is a powerful tool for growing a friend. Genuine praise can affect your friends' lives. Be liberal with praise for all of your friends, including your casual ones.

9. Friends Are Loyal and Trustworthy.
Trust and loyalty go hand-in-hand for friends. Friends can trust you with their secrets, both large and small, because good friends never break a confidence. Good friends are forever loyal!

10. Friends are Equal.
Friends are on a seesaw. In a healthy relationship, friends are equals. Not 50/50 every time, of course, but with a true, lasting friendship it always evens out in the end.

11. Friends Reveal Their Feelings.
We feel closest to our friends when we are suffering together, when we feel like our friend needs us, or when we feel a friend has shared something of great importance with us.

12. Friends Do Not Mind Read.
The person who thinks, "If you really liked me, you could read my mind" can not have an adult friendship. No friend can read your mind. And you can not read your friend's mind.

I'm searching ...

Semalam tak sempat nak mengarang. Pagi petang mesyuarat, habis lambat plak tu. sorry blog ;-)

Kadang-kadang aku rasa aku perlu pandai berkata-kata pedas (saying harsh word) bagi melindungi hati sendiri. bukannya apa, aku ada kekurangan yg bagi sesetengah org boleh jadi bahan lawakan dan umpatan. tapi bila fikirkan balik, tak perlu pening, biarlah org yg mengutuk aku, asalkan aku BAHAGIA. tapi sampai bila aku nak menipu diri sendiri?

prinsip aku senang, i don't do anything that will hurt others,
tapi biasa la pastinya ada org yg mulut jahat akan mengutuk aku. entahlah, apa la nasib aku. aku nak berkawan dgn org, someone to cry on, someone to rely on, tapi rupanya tak semua org boleh dijadikan kawan. aku rasa ada istilah lain bagi seorg kawan yang bukan rapat - MEMBER.

alhamdullillah setakat ini seingat-ingat aku, aku tak pernah menghina org baik fizikal ataupun perangai. cuma bila aku dihina maka keluarlah dari mulut aku mengutuk org tu balik. aku bukan hipokrit dan aku sememangnya tak suka seorang yang hipokrit. bagi aku, kenapa nak bermuka-muka. biar org suka atau tidak pada kita berdasarkan diri kita sendiri (physical and attitude).

entahlah, kadang-kadang aku hairan kenapa aku nie jenis yg suka ambil pot pasal pendpt org lain pasal aku. kalau ikut advice my hubby, "Pedulikan pasal org lain, yg penting hati kita gembira."

memang senang penyelesaiannya tapi pelaksanaannya...

aku kena carik balik maksud sebenar

friendship. jap nak search dlm google ...

"Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow.
Don't walk behind me, I may not lead.
Walk beside me and be my friend."
- Albert Camus

Most of all, my families are my best friends. Muah love u guys.....

She tries, but she can't ...

This morning at the office, my so called friend H try to tell me something. I just can't blend in or befriend with her, i just can't. She always make me feels like S***. apa yg aku bg pendpt, bercakap, ada saja yg keluar dr mulut dia yg buat aku feel like s***. You no what? she doesn't have the nerve to tell straight to my face that she can't keep her promises. so what? i'm adult enough to understand and accept it. just imagine, she told me through email plus cc to her best friend (takut best friend dia jeles - lantak kau la) that she cannot keep her promises, macam la jauh sangat meja dia dgn aku.

for me, aku rasa dia tergugat dgn aku kot. dia asyik perasan cam dia lawa. hakikatnya, aku rasa aku lagi cute kah kah kah. last time, she laugh at me when she saw my nickname on my HP. so what, its my privacy, who do you think you are? i'm sure she can't be my friend. Cos i treat my friend as i love them, kalau salah aku tegur. Kalau bukan kawan aku, lantak ko la, not my prob.

anyway, let it just passby. period. rugi masa aku pikir pasal dia. byk lagi aku boleh pikir. my feelings, my understanding of life, my loves ....

[sambung balik...]

pagi nie anak aku bangun pagi, my hubby dukung dia nak bwk turun. aku ckp, "anak mak, sayang mak sikit." guest what? he gave me a BIG SMILE (puting dlm mulut lagi tu) and rubbed his cheek to mine. argh, i'm the happiest mother in whole wide world. That was the happiest moment for me. The image of my hubby and my son stick in my mind. alhamdullillah.

aku suka merajuk dgn hubby aku. But guest what, my hubby tak reti nak pujuk hehehehe. tp itu la dia my hubby :). aku cuma merajuk sayang dgn dia. aku nie jenis cepat panas, BUT cepat sejuk. cepat sejuk sebab dapat berfikir balik dgn jelas. biasa la tgh marah tak leh pikir sgt. sebab tu la, every time tgh marah :

• kalau berdiri, duduk
• kalau duduk, berdiri
• kalau masih marah, ambil air sembahyang, buat sembahyang sunat (provided dah sembahyang waktu wajib la kan ... kah kah kah)

how lucky i am to have a very understanding hubby (kalau my hubby tau, mau kembang dia hehehe) and loves me so much. maybe for someone else its seems that i'm bragging about my hubby. Rambut sama hitam, hati lain-lain ye tak. cuma aku bersyukur apa yg aku ada and aku hargai apa yg aku ada (walaupun selalu gaduh pasai hal kecik2). From now on, aku akan kurang merajuk kay sayang :)

from now on, my blog will be about OUR LITTLE FAMILY.

adios...

see u again my blog. :-)

p/s : help... i must finish reading PRIDE and PREJUDICE. is there any summary about this book??

Once again...

actually tadi aku dah post tp ada error plak. terpaksalah aku mengarang balik. hilang idea tadi, timbul idea.

haa.. pasal aku ada anak lelaki yang CUTE dan HANDSOME (hehehehe perasan sendiri) and my beloved hubby. Last Sat, my hubby and son pegi kedai mamak, potong rambut(panjang sangat sampai tendang telinga heheheh). My Son dapat haircut recruit style (1/2 inci tinggi), well my hubby dapat jambul di depan - ish hensem plak hubby aku nie. hehehe... anyway back to my son...

i'm not quite happy with the haircut. bila aku tengok cam bebudak nakal. hubby aku plak, explain yg that is just a haircut. its up to us to didik dia jadi orang yang berguna, lagipun mudah dan selesa, tak panas dan gatal2. Bukannya apa, my son ada 2 pusar di kepala. satu cantik di tgh kepala, satu plak kat area dahi, so bila potong rambut nampak sangat pusar yg depan tu. Orang tua2 cakap pusar 2 nie budak nakal, Nauzubillah. nampak gayanye aku terpengaruh dgn pantang larang org tua2.

anyway, betul apa yg my hubby cakapkan :" Yang mencorakkan anak-anak nie, mak bapak dia. bukan pusar di dahi."

one thing yg aku kurang puas hati dgn org yg selalu ungkapkan frasa "tak dak duit". even though dalam bank still ada cuma tak withdraw. For me, its like an omen. Cukup 40 kali, tak dak duit sungguh jadinya. And for anyone yg selalu ungkapkan frasa nie, henti2 kan lah. Better berdoa dan berusaha. Duit takkan datang bergolek, rezeki takkan datang berlari.

i still remember my mom's favourite advise PLUS word : BUKAN SENANG NAK JADI SENANG

Just found out

aku baru jumpa M, my boss. aku dah hilang respect pada dia, lagi. dia borak and citer ngan aku pasal last meeting with super boss minggu lepas. ada ka patut dia kaitkan pasal anak si N nie yg hyperaktif dgn perangai si N.

aku quote apa yg M cakap "patut la anak tu hyper, mak dia suka expose diri dalam meeting. kan one of perangai hyper tu suka tonjol diri. ntah-ntah dia masa kecik tu pun hyperaktif gak"

aku terkejut. one point mungkin M betul (dlm hal kerja) tapi one point lagi, not a good thing to say like that. KUN FA YA KUN. macam la Allah takleh turunkan kat cucu2 dia nanti. entahlah, aku takut bila pikir. nampak gaya macam backstabber jer si M nie.

anyway, aku dapat pengajaran dalam bab nie.

• First, don't over expose.
• Second, KUN FA YA KUN.
• Third, jangan masuk campur dalam hal kain orang

p/s : try to be a good observer and interpreter. ;)

trying my best to finish PRIDE and PREJUDICE .....

For a start

Trying my best to jot down every thoughts