Abang sayang plak, tahun nie kerap sembahyang Terawih. Alhamdullillah, His favorite mosque adalah Masjid Besi. Syok sembahyang kat situ, katanya.
Aku plak berazam utk memperbanyakkan lagi solat terawih di rumah berbanding tahun lepas. Ikut hati, teringin nak ikut abang sembahyang di masjid, suasananya berbeza tapi muiz dan faiz belum bersunat. kang putus saf plak. Terbayang2 suasana sembahyang terawih masa zaman sekolah. Especially Form 3 siap dgn solat tasbih sekali.
Bangunan sekolah dalam bentuk U-shape, tengah2 tu ada court utk PE. Bila tiba bulan puasa, kitaorg gotong-royong basuh court tu, lepas solat Maghrib, bentang tikar plastik, solat terawih ramai2. Suasana masa tu memang melekat di ingatan sampai sekarang. sebab bila makmum mengaminkan bacaan Surah Al-Fatihah, bergema betul. Sejuk hati rasanya. Syok betul even though court tu mengeluarkan haba panas dan berpeluh2 kitaorg solat yang
diimamkan oleh ustaz2 di sekolah.
Ada sorang ustaz favorite nie, masya-allah lupa namanya. Kitaorg dulu suka 'gu'kan dgn my long lost friend 'Anis Dhuha bt Md Radzi'. Ustaz nie chubby sikit tapi comel betul. oh ya, Ustaz Adnan. Lama dah terputus hubungan dgn my friends di SMKA Al-Mashoor (P). Yup, u read it right. I, once pernah bersekolah di sekolah agama, form 1 - 3. Just to drop a few names here, Anis, Baiyah, Sh Juriah Tuan Chek, Sh Baizura, Shahida Ghazali, Suhaila, Shuhada, Ct Haryani Abdul Kahar, Norasmawati, Sh Amani ...
Bab berhubung balik dgn kawan2 lama nie, aku malu sebenarnya becoz i 'transformed' so much from those years. Ye lah, almost 20 years ago. I have sort of inferior complexity hehehe. Especially phyisical. Tak senonoh kan. Hehehe. During those years, aku aktif dalam sports i.e netball, handball, volleyball, taekwon-do... so slim jadinya. After the accidents in 1999 (come to think of it, dah 10 thn dah), i gained so much of weight plus 2 kali bersalin, my 'baby fat' (stubborn fat) tak turun but keep gaining.
Masa Form 5, berat 54kg je... sesuai dgn tinggi 154cm. But now, i won't tell you :D. My hubby knows my battles (note the s yer) with weight. Aku nie banyaknya Hangat2 Taik Ayam. No tenacious, no perseverance...
Amacam boleh tukar dari citer ketenangan Bulan Ramadhan ke my weight plak nie... ?!
Since bulan puasa last year, bila tiba jer bulan puasa, aku mesti teringat kat arwah Abah. Sejuk dia di bulan Ramadhan. But bila cecah 15 puasa, sedih aku mengenangkan nak berakhirnya ramadhan. Al-Fatihah aku sedekahkan kepada arwah abah.
Once last year, on first day of ramadhan whilst driving to work, i broke down, crying a lot siap sedu-sedan, thinking of him, missing him tremendously. He is still my beloved father, no body can replaced him.
I promise myself to take care of my mom. I don't want her to be sad, to burden her with any issues and Love and caring of her with all my heart and life.
Adik beradik aku tak ramai, 3 orang jer. Me being the eldest. I love my family so much. My hubby, my mom, my sons, my sister and my brother.
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