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Tuesday, July 26, 2005

Nak stop la ...

Aku rasa nak stop blogging nie. Aku nak change kepada private atau mungkin tukar URL.

Friday, July 22, 2005

My Color : BLUE

BLUE

You give your love and friendship unconditionaly. You enjoy long, thoughtful conversations rich in philosophy and spirituality. You are very loyal and intuitive.

Find out your color at Quiz Me!

Monday, July 18, 2005

Happy Birthday To Me ...

Well, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Me...

Thursday, July 14, 2005

Sibuk hal orang

dua, tiga menjak nie... aku sibuk la ... sibuk dgn hal orang... bloghopping merata2... blog sendiri terabai. ampun yer blog.. nanti update balik... byk sgt yg terjadi... emosi aku gila2. very sensitive... sebab tgh berbadan dua kot. asyik sensitip jer aku... this week dah 12 weeks dah kandungan aku.. aku badan besar.. so tak nampak sgt perut naik.. perut bwh tak naik sangat... yg naik perut atas... org panggil babyfat from last pregnancy... hehehehe... bila semangat nak kurus dtg... tup2 mengandung.. takpa la... Muiz pun dah 1 tahun 7 bulan... kesian pun ada kat muiz... tapi bila tengok dia main sorang2, cian plak tak dak gang nak main... insya-allah 26 Jan 2006 aku due. lagi dua minggu kena p kursus BTN, nampak gaya takleh la nak lasak2. Bahaya.

Last June, unit aku kena turun padang (outstation) seluruh Malaysia melawat projek, aku tak leh pi. aku kena jaga Projek MID Penang and Johor. so terpaksa minta kak H tolong cover. sebab masa 1st pregnancy, aku gugur sebab naik kapal terbang. kalau nak citer experience tu, pjg gak...nanti la aku citer. Muiz is my second pregnancy. insya-allah, kandungan aku kali selamat. Tapi aku pantang nampak chocolate Ferrero Rocher. Setakat nie dah 10 bijik aku makan. Ish tak leh... azam aku lepas pantang nak diet giler... biar kurus cam a few years back masa belajar kat UTM. If ppl kenal aku masa kat UTM & tengok aku sekarang, mampus diaorg terkejut. mana taknya bertukar size...

Kalau aku post gambo aku masa kurus and now... mesti lawak punya. Alasannya... aku accident masa 1st semester, final year. tgh bz dgn projek. Untuk makluman aku berjalan kaki dan dilanggar oleh sebuah motosikal. Teruk tak? Masa tu aku rasa teruk, tp bila pikir balik, alhamdullilah tak seteruk org lain. Aku patah kaki kiri, area ankle (pasai apa aku rasa macam dah pernah cerita?) Masa tempoh sembuh tu, pengalaman aku yg tak leh aku lupa. So, dr nasihat jgn aktif sgt guna kaki kiri bagi tempoh 2 tahun. soooo dalam tempoh 2 tahun tu la aku bertambah berat badan (ketui2 lemak - macam kak tenah citer dalam blog dia)...

Sooo, insya-allah lepas pantang, aku berazam turunkan berat badan. Tak fit rasanya. Masa anak dara (lepas accident & dah gemuk), aku boleh control lagi weight aku. Tapi lepas kahwin dan beranak pinak nie, teruk aku rasa badan aku. Ish... kalau la ada member yg bersemangat macam aku nak turun berat nie kat Putrajaya, boleh la buat member sparring ker apa ker...

Aku minat martial art. aku minat Taekwon-do. aku kurus dan cun dulu sebab aku aktif bertaekwon-do. Emmm... mesti kuat semangat. Kena ikut nasihat Kak Andeh.. "Set objective, then the planning and execution will follow"

Macam kak ely cakap, "Happiness is in your hand"...

So, here come my new me.... :-).

Insya-Allah... Amin.

I'm doing this for my own happiness....

Thursday, July 7, 2005

Balance of Life ...

A good advice…
'What I do today is important, because I will never have today again… "

Mary and Susan were friends for years. They grew up together and attended the same schools. They were now both in their 40's, and both had great careers. They both had a similar upbringing - same education, same family values, similar support and financial position. But there was one main difference. Mary never seemed to have enough time. She watched her life long friend Susan. She had similar responsibilities and interests. Susan had a career, she had three children, and she had her hobbies, one of which included golf. Over lunch, Susan was telling Mary about the golf game that she played last weekend.

"Susan, where do you find the time to play golf?" asked Mary. "I never seem to have the time, now with the children older and doing their own thing I thought I would have time to play golf like we did when we were in College."

Susan looked at Mary and laughed, "Mary, we both have the same hours in a day. You do have the time to play golf!" With a sigh Mary replied, "That's easy for you to say. I never seem to have time. My work takes so much of my time. I am in the office at 7:30, I leave at
6:30 in the evening. By the time I get home and have dinner, it is 8:00! And, then I usually have a briefcase full of work. The weekends are full of more work. Just to keep up, I have to put in the hours. You know what it is like!"

"Of course, I know what it is like," Susan said. "But what would happen tomorrow if you got sick? Who would do the work?"

"Sick. Who has time to get sick!" exclaimed Mary. "But if I did get sick, someone else would do the work, I suppose."

"You know something, Mary, I used to be like you. I worked night and day and of course on weekends. When I got home I was exhausted but I would push myself and read my children a bedtime story. By the time I went to bed, I would be more than exhausted. The boss I had was very demanding. She was there early in the morning, late at night, and she always worked weekends. I felt I had to do the same I needed the job to help support my family - Just as you did."

"But then I had a change of bosses. The man I worked for was older and much wiser, I might add! Of course, I continued to work the hours I had been working. One day he came to my desk and passed me a card that had a quote on it which said, 'What I do today is important, because I will never have today again' - then he left."

"I sat there stunned. I suddenly thought of what was important to me. While my work was important, I realized my children were more important. I also realized that time for me was important. It was 4:30, the official closing time of the office. I straightened my desk, felt a twinge of guilt about leaving but I forced myself to leave. I was home by 5:00. My children and husband were surprised. I had a wonderful evening. It was not a chore to read that bedtime story that evening."

Mary was looking at her friend thoughtfully and then questioned Susan about the work she had left on her desk. Susan replied, "I never thought this possible, but I actually accomplished more the next day then I had in weeks. As I was leaving the next day I stopped at my new boss's office and thanked him for the quote. He told me a story about advice his dad had given him many years ago when he was working night and day. He referred to it as 'Balance of Life'."

" His dad told him to keep balance in his work, in his family life and in time for himself. He explained to me, while all aspects of our life are important, without a balance, you become addicted and like all addictions you lose.
- No balance with your family - you lose them.
- No balance with your work - you lose your perspective and you actually lose focus on the important aspects of your job.
- No balance with yourself - you forget who you are and when you retire you have nothing!

He went on to tell me that who we are, is NOT what we do to make a living. Who we are is a balance of our family, our work, ourselves! It truly was the best advice I ever received."

Mary took a drink of her tea and tearfully looked at her friend, "But I would never get my work done if I left at 4:30!" Susan looked thoughtfully at her, "When you go to work on Monday, look at what you have on your desk. Make a list of everything you have to get done and beside that list write the impact of not doing it. Then focus only on the top three items that have the most impact. Do that everyday for a week. At first, you will find it difficult to leave. But, after awhile, you will find that you will have more energy, and you will be more focused in your work because you have BALANCE! There are times when we have to lose balance - a special project at work, or a family matter at home - but consciously focusing on balance keeps everything in check." Mary smiled at her friend,

"Thanks for talking with me. We have been friends for so long. Thank heavens I have balance with your friendship! You have convinced me. I will leave the work in my briefcase this weekend. On Monday, I will make the list first thing. Perhaps next weekend, I will have the time to go golfing with you!" Balance of Life" - important for us ALL!

Wandering...

Right now i don't have any observervation to be reported. i know that nobody is reading & understanding my points. more of 2 cents ideas. do i need to write in English which are very rusty rather than my Bahasa that allow me to explore my creativity? Entahlah...

sometimes i think i need attention in everything i do to encourage me in doing anything that i've done. Di mana ada kemahuan di situ ada jalan kan? but i'm sort of a person that needs some motivation in everything i do.

Sometimes i feel lost in my own world. Meraba-raba, terkapai-kapai... aku teringin menyampaikan mesej kepada semua dalam penulisan aku. Bila aku menulis, aku syok sendiri. Do i need to be formal? Kena ada pendahuluan, kena ada penutup, kena ada isi-isi yg perlu dielaborate? aku kena berbahasa baku ke? atau selamba? ke aku perlu ikut gaya penulisan aku sendiri? be myself?

baru nie member aku baru bertukar tpt kerja. Dalam ucapan, bos dia highlights the essence of her... kalau aku bertukar nnt. Do people understand me? or they just highlights my formal personality not the true me... do i need to over expose myself so that people understand me better even though i felt like letting people hurts me more...

what do i really wants in my life? Sometimes i felt like people take advantage of me.. me being helping around ... people says that i don't have any work. Do i need to pretend that i'm busy?

Honesty is the main point in my life. I won't befriended anyone who cheat on me. If u have something to say... Say it to me... not people around me...

Right now, at the age of becoming 28 in 11 days ... i still don't know what is my Best Quality... i'va already asked my hubby... He said that my love for him... is the best quality in me... Do i believe in what he said? Yes, but i don't think that is my Best. how do i find out what is my best Quality... huh...

I don't want my whole life to be like this... still wandering about my life. Do i need to be serious at the age of 30? no more fun... i felt like i'm living in a glass box. nice to see, nice to hold, but empty inside. What do i need to do to make my life more colours? huh...

Friday, July 1, 2005

Senyum















Senyum jer M nie.... eeee geram... mak cubit pipi tu kang hehehehehhehehe

You Are My Sunshine....

Kebosanan

Bosan... boring... bosannya... dah byk hari tak dapat encouragement .... apa nak jadi dgn aku nie...